Me thoughts and ME

2010-04-21T01:38:00.002+08:00

God, I really feel so despair.

I need help, I need blessings.

Not hopelessness, despair.

2010-04-19T03:16:00.002+08:00

I can't remember how, I can't remember why.

I'm mentally tired from everything.
I'm physically tired from the boredom.

God, why is everyone having good family, good parents.
Providing them with what they want.

Me? Nothing. Always trying to work so hard.
Always trying to prove I'm better.

For whose sake? Me? No.
It don't get recognize anywhere too.

Just be fair to me, for at least once?
Why is my life so plagued with bad things?

2010-04-06T12:23:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. my eyes are swollen.
Slept at 6.

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Just msn-ed. Feel so distanced.
I feel so all alone

2010-04-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

you feel sad..

don't I ?

2010-04-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

dear..

i already said in the sms.. i dont wish to say more.
I feel that you have not given me enough attention. You are always doing stuff and ignoring me. I try very hard always to call you dear dear dear wanting your attention.
i''ve tried very hard to want to get your attention without telling you. But in the end is futile. I'm tired of wanting to get your attention. So I really dunno what to do, gradually the old temper came back..

and i didnt know how it just came back too. I know it's my fault, I will control my temper back.

Sorry. I feel bad. I cut myself. it hurts, but im numbed with tears. I'm no superman

2010-04-06T01:16:00.002+08:00

right now quarreling..

sms-ed because I want you to understand and not quarrel.

I need more attention and I don't think that's wrong. You can probe nicely, asking if anything is wrong, instead of only asking one time.

I feel sad too. I have emotions too. Don't I cry? Like I am right now.
goddamntears. stop flowing down my eyes.

2010-04-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

Love the way the person is.
Not way the person to love.

I can't be who you want to be. I am what I am.
I will try to change for your sake, but I am still me.
I'm not others. I'm not expressive on the outside.
That's me. That's it.

2010-03-31T10:11:00.001+08:00

I lost it, but it found it way back to me.

Now, I will try to lose it again.

Just leave me far ok.Alone.
Bye bad temper.

2010-03-31T01:58:00.002+08:00

I know I'm not having a good temper recently.. Just didn't know why.

Maybe just tired of wanting to get all your attention and care. Maybe I'm selfish, but all I need is more of your care.

I'm sorry. Just got real tired. I cried. I'm sorry. I know I should not have scold you always. I'll change.

Yesterday... It hurts. My elbow hurts, but it's numb cause my heart hurts more. Instead of caring and asking if I'm ok, you just sat there looking at me thinking that it's fake. Not even trying to care. I'm sick and tired of being always the good guy.

But I have to continue to. Bad temper and being bad brings me no where.

I'll change. So it starts today or right now.
I'll control my temper, lose all of it.
I can do it in the past, I can do it now too.

All for you.
Goodnight.

2010-03-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

I know I'm not at all a perfect person.
But I get jealous, because I care about you.

Perhaps, I care too much.
But I care, because I'm afraid to lose you.

Perhaps, I'm too afraid.
But I'm afraid, because I love you.

Perhaps..

Those words you said just now, it hurt me. But you won't know because I won't want you to know. Too use to it, being quiet about it.

I know I'm not a good boyfriend at all.
Sometimes I feel like giving up.

I did try to give my best, maybe not good enough.
Not good enough for you.

Sometimes I'm tired, I complaint, because I would want at least a word of concern, from you. But not you getting fed up that I complaint.

Tears rolled down again.
Each blog post now is all about things that would break my heart.

I'm not a very strong person to start with.
I put a brave front, yet, it's never brave enough.

Men do get weak. Men do fall. Men do get tired.
I'm a normal human.
What people wants, I would most probably want to.
I have feelings.

Yet not enough. Gemini. Twin side of me. Twin side of behaviour. Twin side of character. Twin side of temper. Gemini.

A hug at times would replace thousands of words.
I need, perhaps more than a hug. Cause millions of words can't be spoken from my mouth. Millions of thoughts running through my head.
Yet again, none could be confide to anyone.

It's not that I did not keep my promise to not let you know. It's my nature to not to talk about my things.
I don't need people to get angry when I talk, but I need a person who can listen, and console me if I need.

Feel like a mute. I keep quiet.
Perhaps like what most people said, don't care don't know. That's the best.
Just live it through .

2010-02-14T03:23:00.002+08:00

Really.. it's because I'm afraid.

No one understands. I was hoping that you do too.. But it seems not..
No one knows that I cry in the middle of the night because of certain things.

Life, is really full of uncertainty, full of it, that I'm really unsure of.
I'm afraid of it myself, let alone, letting people know.
I kept things to myself always because I don't know how to express it.
I don't expect people to know it too. It's my problem, my stupid thoughts, my crazy uncertainty, ain't no one else.

Burden, I have a lot, but let it be on me alone. Because no one should suffer because of me, not even you should.
I learn to keep things to myself always. I try to show my other side in front of others, I don't want to be weak.

I pretend to be strong, because I am easily crumbled, more than anyone. You do not know only.
I pretend to be happy, because I can't find happiness anywhere, I have no faith in it actually.
It's all pretentious, I'm more fake than anyone, I know.

Today's Valentine's Day, but also the first day of chinese new year. Kinda, kinda weird when these 2 days crash together.
Have to go to relative house, and celebrate at the same time. Tiring.

Life, is very tiring. Finished the UT on friday, everyone was happy, but I was not. Had a very sad feeling, leaving school when I dislike school so much. Perhaps to use to being a student already, life is already in adulthood, but I'm not prepared.
Though God already pushed me to my limits of being an adult a few years ago when I was still a student.

My dear love, I know that I'm unreasonable at the same time, but I want to tell you, it's because I'm afraid to lose you.
I know that I control a lot, I'm sorry, I can't let you be a happy girl.
I'm not your brother, who can just let his wife go dance so closely with guys, wear what she wants, whatever.
I'm jealous, I admit, it's because I care. I'm scared.

No one understand this fear, so much. So much that if you leave me, I just want to give up everything in life already.
My life is already in a full darkness, but with you, the one that is shining on me always, I still see some light.
Some light in life, Some light in love, Some light in happiness, Some light in hope.
Without you, there'd be no sun in my life. I know you won't be reading this.
My blog has been "unofficially" pronounced dead by me, when it is not. I just want to update it when things are beyond my expression.
Typing it out to the computer, perhaps is a better choice. At least I'm facing a screen, I don't have to face the cruelty of life. I just want to rant it out.

The video, songs is so not easy to find.. I'm trying my best. It's 3.33am now, an unearthly time, for an unearthly being for me to be awake. I'm just waiting for daybreak, for me to get tired, for my brain to be dead, for me to just rot my life off for now.
I've been not sleeping well for a very, very long time. It's getting very tiring, I want to give up on life, really.

Really.. I just wish someone would understand me more. Understand that I'm easily crumbled, easily fell down, easily to cry. I'm weak, and I should just die off.

Because no one cares too.. no one.. would even bother to ask.. to know..
I'm like an idiot, typing to the computer, wishing someone would come to know, ha, stupid . real stupid.

................................ R.I.P.................................

2009-08-31T15:51:00.001+08:00

i want the simple old days back..
it hurts me..

2009-06-09T22:03:00.003+08:00

If walking 3 minutes is a trouble to see me for 10minutes more
I don't know what's lesser to be worth it.
Because,
I could just walk ten thousand miles just to see you, even for a minute.

Oyasuminasai

2009-05-24T04:55:00.002+08:00

I missed home.

I missed my dog, Bobby. He's my birthday present. I loved him, I dote on him, even though he bites me most of the time, because I disturb him when he sleeps. Regardless of that, I still loved him. I missed him. He goes missing, never to be found. I am partially to be blamed, for not taking care of him properly, allowing my cousin to bring him out and lost him. I'm sorry. I'm really.. really irresponsible.

From a house, full with warmth, mom, dad, me, pet dog. Reducing to relative house, and due to stupid secondary school life, I neglected him. I neglected the pet dog that I loved.. I really missed him a lot..

From a smaller house, reducing to a room. Me alone, with nothing. Mom, dad, no, there are not here. God, why is life so unfair. People can have a good family, with parents living under one roof, they can have what they want. Me? Nothing, living under a different roof, for nearly 8 years. No I cannot have what I want. I can only hope, and wished, until it came true when I really work hard and go for it. The family's not rich, unlike others.

Since young, life have been harsh. From a strict control, to no control. From a family, to no family. From a house, to no house. From a pet, to no pet. It's like, losing things, forgetting things, slowly and slowly, from time to time. Time passes too fast, things, goes away too fast, before you even realise.

I wanna go home. I'm just too far, from where you are, I wanna come home..

Relationship with people, it has not been that good. I'm not a person who bothers to be bother about everything, but not a person who do not bothers about everything. I just, don't want to think of it. Friends come and go, I do not have a single "friend" that can really be mentioned. It's always hey, bye.

I know, nobody cares. I don't too. Life, is unfair to me, already been so many years. I'm too used to it being unfair.

Birthday........................
Nope, it's not important. Just, how I wish this day does not exist, so I am not in this world suffering.
It's living in misery, ain't luxury.

Deep down, I'm a person with superb complex and complicated thoughts, where no one could guess and even access the simplest level out of it. I think a lot, about everything. May it be good or bad, or even thinking about things that has already happen, or things that practically will not exist in this world. It's not that I'm not willing to share, to talk about it, but verbalising it, is more difficult. Saying is easy, but doing, is the toughest.

Why work so hard? Life is so fragile, that it can be gone anytime.
Humans, are all blinded with money. What if, 1 day everything got reduced back to primate period. No money, would you people still willing to study? To work? For a good cause? Nope. Everyone is working, their bloody ass out for money. Nothing else matter, with money, they think they can make everything happen.

Life is always harsh on me, I've almost given up hope. I know I have a good girlfriend, I cherish her, a lot, a lot more than anyone, anything else in this world. Life, just trashed out everything bad on me.

I don't know, life sucks. Sometimes I thought how it would be amazing, to see the wonder of the world, I would just want to travel, I don't want to work. Working is tiring. No I don't want to be. Life makes me tired. I'm too tired to work hard. I just want to be a stupid fool who pretends to not know the unfairness in this world.

All in all, I'm still sitting down here, complaining how tough and stupid life is. I know.
Don't even bother saying " get up on your feet ! "
This is bullshit. I've seen a lot of things, things practically failed.

2009-05-12T15:45:00.001+08:00

Sometimes.. I would just need more of consoling..

Not just you trying to get angry with me, when I am already angry..

When I'm hurt, you ~~cut~~ it in more deeply..

When can you understand, the real understanding..

I'm hurt now, but I bet you don't know, cause you're quarreling and showing attitude to me, instead of asking and continuing to coax me. I have feelings too..
I have it too..

2009-05-03T15:04:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just need some words of console, instead words of retort.
Understand me more will you?

2009-03-23T18:11:00.001+08:00

Life is freaking unfair.

Lord, just give me a death sentence.

I have enough of all these shits.

2009-01-25T13:44:00.001+08:00

today is new year's eve ~
wish everyone a early happy new year (:

Lazy to update blog.. too lazy

I'm having a chingay performance on 31st Jan @ PA.

2009-01-08T01:01:00.003+08:00

I woke up in the middle of the night and I notice my girl wasn't by my side ~
- adapted from Akon - Mr Lonely.mp3

No I ain't lonely you shit. Lol. Don't think so much about the song name HA.

I woke up and I can't get to sleep ! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
It's omg, godblessme, hey, give me a good sleep =]
I'm suffering from chronic insomnia @ final stage, which causes hallucination, illusion while trying to keep my eyes close.
I see ghost !
dots like real.

If only darling is beside me, HUG her, KISS her, that'll be a gooooooooooooood sleep.
I need that ;D

2009-01-07T09:41:00.002+08:00

Woo, my....... *cough* blog is collec *cough* ting dust !
.......................... Err......
Time to ........ clean it ... up I guess .... *cough*

Let's have some update !

18 / 12 / 2008
Had a pre-birthday celebration for my darling with her family of friends (:
We met up at bugis with everyone. The list is long so I shall just mention the numbers !

9 people for the steamboat @ bugis !
10 people later on for the after-dinner activities :]
Some went for LAN games, some went for arcade and some went for pool.
&&
6 people are the only survivors at night for the pub drinking session !
We drank 1 chivas only :] That's quite little.
The location is @ Fashion Bar. Quite nice ambience :]
After the drinking session, when the pub is closing @ 2am, we went out for french fries :] Just outside the pub itself where there is a pushcart selling it. Sat down there and chatted til 4.30am until it closes and went to MacDonalds @ Raffles till 6.30am, went home, and SLEEP :]

20 / 12 / 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my wife (:
She's finally 18 years old :]
??????????????????? Don't think too much :D ????????
Anyway, met up with her at Yishun and went to Plaza Singapura, sent her bracelet for altering, went to buy donuts! Lovely donuts, suddenly have cravings for them LOL.
We went to The Cathay for movie, Ip Man.
It was a nice show, for people who have not watch this show, it's a definitely- must- watch- show !
Trust me, you won't regret it !
It's read as Eep-Mun not I-P-MAN :]
Anyway it's a simple celebration

24 / 12 / 2008
Christmas eve! We celebrated by having a 2-person steamboat !
Met up darling for a shopping for the food @ cold storage.
Then we had the steamboat, have some leftover foods cuz we bought too much I guess.
It's raining whole day long and it's making everyone tired and sleepy for the evening hah!

25 / 12 / 2008
Met up with the family of friends again. We went for basketball session
?! ?
Christmas day play basketball ? :D unique huh.
Anyway we went for dinner @ a hawker centre lol. Very simple celebration.
After which we went to Jeffrey house and play overnight.

31 / 12 / 2008
A day that is ending so soon to reaching the next year.
We went to AMK to Suki Sushi and we had tp split tables cuz it's kinda packed and full house constantly. It's splitted up to 4 and 5 person group. Surprising 4 person ate more than 5 person! hahaha. The bill is horrendous !
After that we went for to AMK Hub, actually wanting a movie session, but in the end there is no good show to watch, so we went to the arcade and play instead.
At around 10pm++, we decide to head to Jeffrey's house again and before that, we bought 2 bottles for wine and some titbits.
Countdown ! 5 4 3 2 1 ? !
Happy 2009 ! Stay overnight and darling went to my house to sleep in the morning (: that's a great start for a new year ;D

1 / 1 / 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR . BYE.
! lol attitude. But nothing much to blog.

5 / 1 / 2009
Holy crap, SCHOOL STARTED.
What a fucked up day with PRIYANKA.
Bloody boring facilitator. I didn't talk for the day.
It's crappy. Fucked.

6 / 1 / 2009
Applied Chemistry, as relax as ever.
I only knew that I to darling's house, try to force myself awake and in the end, i reach home at 11, i fell asleep immediately after lying down on my bed.

7 / 1 / 2009
Today la deh. Haven finish, cannot update !
but my Applied Chemistry UT3 grade like fuck.
E !
WTFish, this is the first test that I got E ! the usual grade do not have this freaking alphabet ! Since when did Epsilon come into my life ?! Shit. lol

Anyway the grading sucks too
1 / 30 - F grade
2 / 30 - E grade (that's what I get)
3 / 30 - D grade
4 / 30 - D+ grade
5 / 30 - C grade
6 / 30 - C+ grade
for B - A, i'm not sure of the mark. but how bad can this go?
sucks.
hahahahahahha.

2008-12-08T11:47:00.004+08:00

Sometimes.. It takes more than talent.. It's "effort"
Sometimes.. It takes more than courage.. It's "reality"

In life, we cannot choose what suppose to happen
We can change it, if we try hard enough.

But sometimes, it takes more than courage to face these..
Reality is harsh.

People who don't love going home, start loving it.
Before you lose it.

2008-12-02T14:48:00.003+08:00

Hey people, it's been sometime since I update my blog huh.
Had a crazy weekend sia!
I worked at the IT show, SITEX 2008 @ Expo from thursday till sunday!
Met lotsa new friends this time round again. Aha !
Sheng qin whom I know from the previous IT show, worked with me also this time round.
From Sony mp4 to Sony VAIO, haha. Been a great experience.
New friends met : Nicholas, Nicholas (yeah, 2 nicholas lols), Wen Jie, Yvonne, Kimberly, Ze Chuan, Cheng Xun, Jake. Heh

Lai lai, I share some experience. Super funny I think LOL.
2nd experience @ Indian Customer :
- They want everything cheap, they want to a lot of freebies and be high class.
So it goes..

Jon : Hi sir, looking for sony vaio laptops?
INDIAN : How much is this ?
Jon : $2,199 sir
INDIAN : Nononononono, too expensive. Cheaper, $2,000 i buy
Jon : Cannot, Sony price fixed sir.
INDIAN : Cheaper, I want cheap VAIO
Jon : $1,499 I have, you want?
INDIAN : show me
Jon : Here sir
INDIAN : what ram what processor?
Jon : 1GB ram, 1.83Ghz Dual-Core processor.
INDIAN : Free what ?
Jon : SONY bag and case
INDIAN : more more, i want more free things
Jon : No have sir, best I can give
INDIAN : give me Microsoft Office, i buy
Jon : JOKING LA sir, you buy $1,499 you want i give Microsoft Office. I buy from you, you give me FREE ok?
INDIAN : nono. nevermind. bye.

Indians, cheapos. Final.

1st experience @ China Customer :
- They want everything cheap, they want graphics card, they want ALOT freebies.
So it goes..

Jon : 你好，需要什么帮忙吗? (Hi, is there anything I can help?)
China : 这个多少 (how much is this)
Jon : 1499
China : 有没有显卡? (got graphics card?)
Jon : 没有 (No)
China : 不要不要，有没有显卡的? ( nono, is there one with graphics card? )
Jon : 有， $1699 要不要 ( have, $1699 want or not)
China : 太贵了，便宜一点给我 (That's too expensive ! cheaper for me)
Jon : 不可以，价钱定了 (No, price fixed)
China : 哪有什么东西送我 (what freebies is there for me)
Jon : 索尼 (SONY, that's how chee-na people says it in chinese) 的包包，滑鼠，内存升级 (Sony case, mouse and ram upgrade)
China : 那太少了！多送我一些东西 (That's too little ! give me more freebies !)
Jon : 消毒软件要不要，我只能给这个 (antivirus you want? I can only give you that )
China : 那能不能给我一个耳麦？(then can you give me a headphone with microphone)
Jon : 没有了，送完了 (no have, gave out every single piece)
China : 那怎么可以，叫你老板来，给我一个耳麦 (how can that be, ask your boss here, I want a headphone with microphone)
Jon : 没有，要就买，不然就不要 (no have, you want you buy, if not forget it )
China : 好好。我买 (ok i buy)

China customer, no graphics laptop is cheap and they don't want. Want graphics card and it's expensive, they ask for more things. Give already, they ask for more. Just because things in cheena is cheap, doesn't mean it is in Singapore. If you stupid dumb fuck cheena hate Singapore so much, get your ass back to china. You guys are earning SINGAPORE MONEY, not CHINA money. lol. I'm actually venting my hatred towards china people due to this experience. well anyway, forget it. cheapos once again.

3rd experience @ Singapore Customer :
- Kiasu, want more freebies. typical uh. Shalln't type that much. Just to say, it's abit disgraceful for that kiasu behaviour.

Earned quite a fair bit this 4 days :) cool

2008-11-22T12:23:00.002+08:00

Well, have a quick update before I go out.
After the performance, I really lose confidence in myself. I really think that I suck so much. Why everyone can be do so well, whereas me, I seriously think I pull down the show value :(

But after encouragement from my love FELICIA(:, XUE YING(:, and of course AZIE(: !
Thanks for the encouragement!

I will not disappoint you guys, and I will buck up !
Work hard, practice more ! Learn, Practice, Improve !
I want my magic to be rise to a whole new level !
I want my flourish to be BETTER !

Anyway, some random thinking.

Peeps, never think that you are the best. 'Cuz there's always someone out there, practising and learning at the same time, who might be better than you. So all you have to do is, to constantly practise on things that you think you are good at. Never get complacent. Be humble.

That's what I'm gonna do. Hell yeah! Practise ! Someday, somewhere, somehow, I will overtake the one, anyone out there, that is better than me.

2008-11-21T08:36:00.002+08:00

The Adidas Originals. SUPERSTAR SLING II. Dear bought for me (:

Gold, White, it's a beauty.

2008-11-19T13:17:00.001+08:00

Yesterday performance is .. bad..

It could have been better..

2008-11-04T14:08:00.003+08:00

Hey PEEPs, ~~Limbei~~ LOL. I mean I will be performing aye.
This is the poster for 18th November. Reflection '08 it is.
Starts at 7pm, FREE admission! @ the TRCC Studio of Republic Polytechnic.
Non RP students can come too ! First come first serve basis !

It's my VIRGIN stage performance.
Please come support.

No you people don't think too much about the word VIRGIN.

2008-11-03T14:13:00.003+08:00

A trip to the airport ~

The couple.
Random bucket.
The viewing mall.
Portugese Egg tarts to go with the view.
MEMORY STRICK PRO DUOCRUMPLER . RED Western Lawn.Toilets Anyone? ATM perhaps

Lobsters and Oyster for dinner..
Fat hope? No. It'll come true (:

2008-11-01T05:31:00.002+08:00

Hey people, recently didn't have time to blog.

Well, first of first to complain, my PP presentation.

I can tell you, it's a TOTAL disaster.
Gabriel had the same accessor as me.
It's bad, that bad.

PP advisor is so cold to me, another accessor who smile at me but don't give comment. Last accessor looks like an auntie in the supermarket, yet she asked too many question.

A3 poster - $9.60
I printed it, paid it. yet, I only get to present 2 poster out of the 8

vat teehh vuck ? ._______________________.
this is so sucky okay.
They keep asking irrelevant question, say I lack of analytical thoughts.
Hey c'mon la, who can answer your question within 10seconds? You don't even give me time to think, you shoot me question non stop.
I fack got alot of shield to block your bullets?

Another thing is, I refer to my notes, what's wrong?
I know I'm suppose to MEMORISE the BLOODYMFU**ER things, but this ain't mean that I can't refer to notes. I don't have superb memory.

Like what Gabriel said, PP accessors are bitches.
He's 100% correct.

2008-10-28T21:44:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow 3pm - 4pm.
Booth 60. South Agora Hall 3.

Jonathan is so dead.

Dumb Professional Profiling.
Waste time. Stress.

Oh God, please turn the clock to 72hours a day. So that I can sleep for 24hours nicely !

2008-10-27T17:07:00.000+08:00

Home..
It's isn't complete if there isn't a Dad, a Mom, and a You.

How I wish time could turn back.
Everyone would wish I guess.
Turning back the clock.
Where Mom and Dad, were still together.
Where we lived happily together.
Where we were together.
Where we had meals together.
Where we slept together.
Where my pet dog was with me.
Where my pet cat was with me.
Where I spent my childhood.
Where I had a big house.
Where I can just sleep everywhere I liked.
Where it is all, with a Dad, a Mom.
Where 'Bobby', my Shih Tzu dog was with us.
It's my birthday present.

I wanna go home..
This home is so lonely.
This home is so empty.
This home is just.. Alone..
This home is just.. Me..
Me alone, no one else.

Where's the happy family?
Happiness isn't that simple.

H O M E .
I'm just too far, from where you are..
I wanna go home..

In the future, with my wife, I will definitely give our child the best.
A broken family, a broken hearted kid.
It's so shattered. Sometimes, you feel just..
Alone in this world. I know.
I know the feeling. No one else does.
Or perhaps there is. I don't know.

Loneliness is what it's used to describe.
Even though.. Even though..
It's isn't enough..
Where'd you go? It's been forever that I longed.
Longing for the family.
It'll never be back. Quick, just..
Just let me forget.
Forget that I don't have a home.
It's not easy, to smile it away.
Like I always do. It's... Not easy..

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2008-10-24T15:43:00.002+08:00

People, let's get DJ-ing !

I am the DJ MAX PORTABLE 2; LORD OF COMBO.
Top in Singapore. Salute mE!

Clazziquai ! I can't wait to play this game people.
Omg. If you have a PSP, please play this game. This rocks.

But Vanness rocks more.
Well, off topic.

C'mon, let's get the party started !
Groove to the music, Let the rhythm take control ! ~~~~~~~~~ !!!!!!!!

First.............

2008-10-24T10:02:00.002+08:00

Man, woman, which first?

Without woman, there is no man. No one to give birth to man.
Without man, there is no next generation.
So which first?

Just like........
Egg and chicken, Chicken and egg.
Which first?
No egg, no hatching of chick -> chicken.
No chicken, no egg to hatch

?????????????????????????????????

What the hell. Ha.
In this world, everything must be equal. No this, no that.
So people, or rather all who you masochist, please respect woman, you fackers.

--------------.................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-23T19:31:00.003+08:00

My wife is sick ! :(
I can't do anything but to see her suffer, cough, flu, vomit and almost fever.
I pray so hard for her that she will recover soon .

I'm having PPP.
Professional Profiling Phobia.
On Tuesday night, I actually dreamt of PP presentation wth.
It's so random and the dream seems so real lol !
I really hope the PP presentation on next wednesday will turn out smoothly oh god.

Most important thing, my darling, please recover soon.

2008-10-20T14:23:00.002+08:00

Hola ! It's been quite awhile since I updated my blog. Sorry peeps!
Anyway, things are okay between me and my girl already. Thanks for everyone concern especially Huiying (:

Yaa, short update for the moment, I'll be performing on 18th Nov at the TRCC for Reflection '08. Peeps, must support me okay ! First come first serve basis, only opening up to around 400 seats max. Shall update the info once i got it (:

Next, my article !
The feelings for human, or any living organism. We all know that humans have feelings for each other. Whether be it loving, caring, cruel, fierce or whatever. It's feeling. Feelings for parents to offspring, love for them, love for our partner..
What if one day, there is no feeling in this world? Would our parents treats us as a stranger? Will there be no love? No caring, sharing etc. Kinda awesomeeeeeeeee aye. But it's not !

No love, no friends, no lover !

Shall update more (: GTG

2008-10-09T17:33:00.002+08:00

The only way I can use to get to sleep,
is to cry to my dreams from now on.

I'm falling .

Janice - Never Let You Go

2008-10-08T04:31:00.001+08:00

The rain, just never seems to bring
The joy I feel the same. Everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart can’t seem to learn to part
The hold you left your mark
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
A part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in

If you gave me one chance to tell you just how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you
I won’t live my life without you

If you gave me one chance to tell you just how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes
and you know I’d never let you go

The way you left me on the train
I don’t know what to say
I remember everything that day
I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance

Yes, this song describe my feelings right now. 4.31am.

Not sleeping yet.

2008-10-07T23:58:00.002+08:00

吴建豪 & 安七炫 - 127 日
沈祥龙 - 爱你第一个原因
沈祥龙 - 倒流时间

The songs that describe my mood. That's it people.
Shall blog, when I'm back in the mood.

Insomnia

2008-10-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone, Jon is diagnosed with so many problems.
I'm suffering from INSOMNIA.

According to wikipedia,

Insomnia is a symptom of a sleeping disorder characterized by persistent difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep despite the opportunity. It is typically followed by functional impairment while awake. Insomniacs have been known to complain about being unable to close their eyes or "rest their mind" for more than a few minutes at a time. Both organic and non-organic insomnia constitute a sleep disorder

Gosh, people, I need some formula of sleeping.
What do you guys do when you can't sleep?
It's so sleepafantaticaliciously needed. I can't get to sleep..
I can't get to sleep.....

2008-10-07T10:46:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone, if you know how to stop bleeding in the heart,
please tell me.

I've been diagnosed with chronic heart disease that it will cause stabbing pain, bleeds now and then in the heart to cause heart failure and brain failure

2008-10-06T18:24:00.000+08:00

我想要知道能不能牵你的手，我已经知道爱着你有多强烈
亲爱的 love you, So 让我 listen to your heart.

就在一起直到永远

Precious one

2008-10-06T18:13:00.000+08:00

皆は、あなたが愛する物を秘蔵する。決してそれらを失う1日を知らない。誰かそう心から、あなたに愛されて。私はちょうど彼女を失う。私は後悔した。。決してようにすべてそこの男の子、あなたの女の子をそう心から愛する。私とは違って、哀れなみみず

Money !

2008-10-06T14:23:00.004+08:00

Have you ever guys wonder, how money came about?

Ahaha, don't ask me about whether did I make some research on this, I'm lazy
I often wonder, how awesome this piece of $10 I am having. Imagine a world, without money.

Would people still be wanting to be doctors? Lawyers? Police? Or perhaps businessman?
In the past, it would be barter trade way way back to the ancient civilization aye.
Perhaps I didn't study my history well ( but it was always that good ;D ) but how did money came about? Did some funny people just come out with it out of nowhere?

Or did money just pop up from the sky LOL.

However IMO (in my opinion), barter trade cannot justify everything aye.
Let's say in the world today, there's no money. I want a PSP (I had it already ._.)
I mean if, can I just trade 1000 mangoes to get it ? It would be so ..............................
Ya, it's up to your imagination. Heh.

If there is no money, I bet everyone would be doing nothing everyday. Play is more than enough
That's typical. No one wants to work hard because, there's no reward I guess.
Even if there is reward, it would mean popularity?
Like, I grow out 1,000,000 Strawberries, I gave it to everyone and leave sufficient enough for me.
That's would be eh, I woul be so popular because I'm kind to share my strawberries with everyone !

Ha. Back to class. Bye
Hi I'm back.

If you have too much money, you scare.
Scare of people cheating of your asset. Afraid of friends, fake friends who befriend you just because you are rich.. Afraid of male/female unfaithful to you, just because they are eyeing your money..

If you don't have money, you scare.
Scare of dying of hunger. Scare of people know that you are poor. Afraid of people despising you. Afraid of things that coming to you because you had no money.

God. Money, it's trouble... Here and there.. Everywhere and anywhere.
Peeps, if you have the money, please use it.
Wisely. Nicely. Like, oh me god.
In case the next day you wake up, the whole civilization changes, saying that, the paper that you are holding is no longer valid. Please wait another 1,000 years.
WOW. The rich will go WTF WTF WTF WTF WTF fackerz
WOW. The poor will go HOOOOOOOOOOORAY y0u ruleZ

2008-10-06T10:19:00.003+08:00

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=O81rJSbEPCU

Friendship that none of you can ever describe through games.
It's real (:

Life

2008-10-04T04:10:00.002+08:00

Life, it's a wonderful thing isn't it?

How lifeform came about actually.. A science student am I, I know how humans come about
Now, don't think far.............
Ya, but out in the universe, do you guys think that there are lifeforms out there?

I believe ! It's kinda awesome if one day, we are able to live to see, other lifeforms from other planet !
Maybe having some kinds of ultra-uber technology that is so cool. Ha.

Life, it's a very weak thing.
It comes and go that easily. We have to treasure what we have now.
See, an ant can be crushed by us so easily. What do they other ants think? Perhaps they lose a lover?
Now, if giants exist, 1 of them stomp me to death, what will happen to my love? =((
But anyway, life is precious. It's weak, so protect it.
Protect your love ones.

Gosh. I ain't know what I'm blogging. Ha. 4.14am in the morning.
Time to get some sleep.

2008-10-04T02:38:00.003+08:00

He's the best (:
No matter in what aspect you compare, this idol of mine,

He is handsome
He is cool
He is tall
He is muscular
He can sing
He can dance
He can act
He can direct

Okay, so-so, this is the first post for the blog, which I use it to talk about VANNESS WU first.
Why? He's my idol !

Ya, anyway....
If you don't know who is VANNESS WU, please ask somebody ....!!
Visit his blog @ http://www.alivenotdead.com/vannesswu

Everyone have their rights to love their own idol, haters fack off and bye.
Lovers, please continue supporting VANNESS !

The equation of me to my idol : Vanness + Fanatic = [ Vannatic ]
Kopyrighted. Thanks, don't copy me (:

My idol is just so talent luh.. Ha.