I know I'm not at all a perfect person.
But I get jealous, because I care about you.

Perhaps, I care too much.
But I care, because I'm afraid to lose you.

Perhaps, I'm too afraid.
But I'm afraid, because I love you.

Perhaps..


Those words you said just now, it hurt me. But you won't know because I won't want you to know. Too use to it, being quiet about it.

I know I'm not a good boyfriend at all.
Sometimes I feel like giving up.

I did try to give my best, maybe not good enough.
Not good enough for you.

Sometimes I'm tired, I complaint, because I would want at least a word of concern, from you. But not you getting fed up that I complaint.

Tears rolled down again.
Each blog post now is all about things that would break my heart.

I'm not a very strong person to start with.
I put a brave front, yet, it's never brave enough.

Men do get weak. Men do fall. Men do get tired.
I'm a normal human.
What people wants, I would most probably want to.
I have feelings.

Yet not enough. Gemini. Twin side of me. Twin side of behaviour. Twin side of character. Twin side of temper. Gemini.


A hug at times would replace thousands of words.
I need, perhaps more than a hug. Cause millions of words can't be spoken from my mouth. Millions of thoughts running through my head.
Yet again, none could be confide to anyone.

It's not that I did not keep my promise to not let you know. It's my nature to not to talk about my things.
I don't need people to get angry when I talk, but I need a person who can listen, and console me if I need.


Feel like a mute. I keep quiet.
Perhaps like what most people said, don't care don't know. That's the best.
Just live it through .